Tuesday, July 8, 2008

uhh....

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I have not blogged since high school nor have I taken any creative writing classes. Hopefully this will not be the teenage-angst ridden blog of my younger years and hopefully it will improve my writing.

And vocabulary.

Ok. So I will now indulge myself with some stream of consciousness. Sounds like an easy way to get back into this nonsense.

When I used to blog I always had a *deep thought* at the end. Right now my deep thought is: HURRY get out of college or at least out of this funk you are in! The tools are there but my hands are numb. I'm at a loss for words. I go through my days mechanically. And worst of all I overanalyze EVERYtHING. My primary objective is to live without fear (fear of shit not worth fearing that is). So that's what I have just realized I need to do. How funny is it that in my 20's, I've just now realized this? Here's what I think about our little society- We fall into little labels/stereotypes/catagories provided by just about every element of our environment. To rebel against that is to conform, and to conform is to be ignorant... I feel like a hamster. Society tells me I need a career. Ok. I graduate in a year and a half. It tells me I need a hobby. Does drinking and hanging out with friends count? At least I have reading on my side. The one that kills me is the whole "nuclear family" thing... which don't get me wrong, it's probably the thing I want most of all ("we don't always get what we want" rings in my head). This is me putting positive vibes out into the universe: I know this shit will pass... but it sucks pretty hard right now.


Do unto others...



THE END!
<3 kari.

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